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Hey there. Came out of nowhere, i just had this feeling of wanting to share. Thought of tweeting but it was too mainstream. So probably here is the best place (maybe)

So what's up? Nothing much. Life as a upper form student was tough as fak. Especially when you're not in the ordinary school. To compete with these smart ass people was seriously not in my plan. I would never ever ever dream of it but here i am. Caught up in a place surrounded by people with brains and all kind of attitudes, sighh sometime i just can't handle it. Feeling like slapping everyone in their face as hard as i could. (if only i could). But it's not about them, it's about me. I'm not really a smart ass. So getting 3.64 for this sem is enough for me. Atleast i've showed some improvement. Even just 0.06.

Because the day you left was the day i lost. It was pretty different actually to have someone with you 24/7 then but having no one now. It's like BOOM and everything changed and there's no one to blame but myself (or maybe it's your fault too). I miss you, i can't deny that. I ain't hoping for you to miss me. I'm just hoping to find someone like you so i won't miss you more after that. Just go and don't look back.

When you were in a situation of moving on and stay. It just a huge thing to deal with. So i give you the chance to make the decision because i just can't. So, do you want me to stay?

People and their words of promising to be there whenever you need them, i can't believe any of it. Maybe because i'm tired of being lied to. At the end of the day, i am the one who's gonna "be there" for myself. Like shit how pathetic is that. The reason why i put high my guard. Sorry for anyone who get the tempias. Sorry that my i love you is just come from my mouth. Sorry that i've being so numb. Sorry that i lie saying i care. I do, used to. But remember what did you do to me? I'm sorry for you, you really lost the love i loved the most.

and i still wishing someone would come and show me they're different, because right now, no one did.